ONE YEAR SOBER

A year ago today, I came to a crossroads where I had to decide if I was going to fully commit to changing my life or walk the tight rope of having one foot in self-expansion and the other in self-destruction. I made a lot of progress and a true effort to mentally and physically rebuild myself and thought that I was now strong enough to control my vices. A beer or two, a couple glasses of wine, surely it couldn’t hurt, but the truth is, I never knew how to stop at two. Once I started drinking I always had the best intentions but by the end of the night I was the worst version of myself. I’ve lost friends, I’ve made my family disappointed in me and mostly, I always woke up ashamed of who I was during my inevitable blackouts. There’s no way you can get to the top of a mountain while you’re still tied down to the things that are holding you back. It was time to finally battle that demon and get to the root of why I felt like alcohol was the cure-all for all of the inner pain that I’ve spent years trying to escape. After a lot of work, devoting myself and ritually going to counseling and staying away from all of the temptations that surrounded me, my new path finally lead me to where I am today. One year sober, clear minded and the most fulfilled I have ever been. People always ask me if I ever crave a drink, the answer is of course, but when I think of who I was then compared to who I am now, there’s absolutely no way I would ever go back. 


If you’re battling with anything and feel like no one get’s it, I’m always here to talk or just listen. I remember trying to describe what was going on with me to my family and friends but they never understood and couldn’t relate because they have no problem socially drinking. They can have a great time and know how to cut themselves off without crossing over to the dark side. I was always so envious of that but it’s just not in my DNA to drink like a gentleman. 


Stay safe, stay healthy and know that you’re worthy of true happiness.


-Danny